Microblog

In regards to my previous microblog post, I did it! The text reference is technically done, some little changes will be added here and there, but it’s done and somewhere on this website. I’ll be awaiting with anticipation for drawn reference sheet that may happen in the future, to finalize that young Frisk reference sheet.

Honestly, I need a kidfur reference for Frisk. In recent months I increasingly feel like I need one more outlet to help me live day-to-day live, adult bs I have to deal with every day just makes me so damn tired.

A blog post on weaknesses and dangers of Matrix protocol. I’ve been a fan of Matrix for a long time, with all the good and bad things. But I like to share some bad things about things I like as well, because nothing is perfect, and Matrix protocol certainly isn’t. While I approach this list of issues with grain of salt, I think it’s very likely that many of those are true. Majority of them aren’t really affecting me or my friends, since our conversations are usually led between few trusted servers or fully locally, but still worth keeping in mind.

keeps looking at orgs and people to send money to So many people use PayPal as their only method of payment aaaaaaaaaa. I understand there aren’t many comfortable ways to do that, but PayPal sucks so fucking badly and is a privacy nightmare. Sorry, but I’m going to pass because that’s so far off my comfort zone that it’s not something I’ll spend my time on. Artisits are especially guilty of this.

Welp, along with myself leaving reddit for good, it’s time to remove all mentions of Reddit from my websites as well. Can’t recommend a social media website if it doesn’t stand for its users anymore. Currently waiting for kbin to have decent amount of content as well as clients so I could actually switch.

AI art is getting really detailed and looking really well “drawn”, but cursed details like 5th leg or incoherent scenarios are still problems plaguing this technology. That is - ignoring ethical issues I’ve raised on my opinions page.

There are people who are helping corporations owning big wiki farms find forking (moving away from the company owned platform) wikis, who are helping a corporation intrude upon a community and take away their rightful ability to move away, who help big corporation keep the husks of the wiki on the big wiki farm so it farms SEO and destroys community effort to move to better place, people who are reporting adult communities. Those people are working against communities and their actions are unjust. Being a volunteer on a platform does not mean you have to act like a snitch and a cop, and I wonder if those people are actually there to help communities or fill in some self-serving goal “acting good” for a corporation that certainly does not need your help.

Curse my constant curiosity of scientific research into topics that are generally considered taboo in the society. I’ve been reading papers that challenge some core reasons why not to do certain things that are widely considered immoral, unethical and awful. It’s a double edged sword - on one hand I learn something new that is closer to the truth, on the other there is no way I’m discussing those topics with anyone else just because of how distressing that would be, so I’m forced to live with those ideas and only challenge them by reading anonymously yet another research paper on the topic.

Wonderful article on vox.com about puritanist “anti” movement. I’ll always stay on side of sexual freedom and continue to be sex-positive supporter.

Due to awful handling of their social presence, along with proud cooperation with law enforcement I can no longer with all honesty say that I trust Element team. Working with the same groups that undermine the very values of secure and private conversations is in my opinion a position unfit for company making a messaging application. Law enforcement groups continue to lobby for worsening security and privacy of us all, put pressure on privacy activists while also exhibiting biases against minorities. I believe cooperation with such unethical entities is in itself unethical (or at the very least antithetical to supposed efforts for strengthening encryption) by proxy.

I have 2 main areas of interest in art: cute and horni. What I need at given moment depends mainly on mood, sometimes its just cute wholesomeness that makes me feel all fuzzy inside, sometimes its heavy kinks that would make many question existence of any deities, sometimes its both. But I love art and artists, thank you all for sharing your creations with the world <3

The day when major furry websites start deleting NSFW/lewd content in manner similar to Tumblr and Imgur will be the day Internet dies for good.

I’ve wrote a new blog post, this time about furry fandom!

No joke the way that Twitter is led reminds me of myself when I were 11yo. I could see myself doing exact same petty things in position of power lol.

I think this EFF blog post covers pretty much everything I think about AI art generation. What a splendid job of writing that up, big respect for EFF.

Getting consistently letdown sucks a lot and makes me just more disappointed but at least it hardens me so I’m not as enthusiastic about something as I were before since my expectations are already low. Eh.

Humans can be awesome, can be terrible. But they are an absolute PR disaster. That’s why I identify closely with demonic goat species, there are absolutely 0 PR issues with demonic goats. None.

What really grinds my gears are people who defend capitalism or tell me to look at things from eyes of a company. No I won’t, companies are legal entities – structures people made that are not other people and which in vast majority have an unsustainable goal of endless growth which often occurs by exploitation of workers by underpaying them while overpaying management positions. Companies should not own creations – creations should be owned by artists and creators who made them. Sure - company should have the right to use them (assuming they paid for creation fairly) but the person who legally owns them should be the artist.

Furry art uplifts my mood greatly. In day to day grind knowing that I can open gallery and browse so many fuzzy characters is just an absolute aaaaaaaaa. Also it’s such a weirdly cool feeling when people feel free to express themselves through their anthro character, I love it. Be yourself, be weird and awesome.

So many ideas, thoughts I want to put on my blog, yet no time or motivation to do so. My brain is what it is.

I do agree a lot with sentiment behind this post. Machine learning solutions should be open, especially when they are being trained or developed with use of public commons.

I still need to re-warch Bojack Horseman some day when I don’t feel like I’ll easily get depressed. It’s one of the best animated series I’ve seen and if there is a show with replay value its this one.

„Why should I care about privacy? You are just paranoid” I’ve recently heard. But the story keeps repeating basic human rights continue being violated. If you don’t care about your own privacy, at least try to care a little for sake of people you talk with.

Ughhhhh, I’ve done absolutely moronic thing like 30 minutes ago just because I’ve wanted to respond to reddit command in good faith. Asdasdasireieirewrewrenrwq’;wr[etgrfgodjhkh

I see term “American feelings yakuza” is being popularized due to that note. And yeah, I stand with freedom of artistic expression by artists, I heavily dislike people policing what kind of content someone should be able to enjoy and not recognizing reality from fiction. I have a few reservations about that (mainly due to how fiction can impact reality), however my general policy remains as is.

I guess saying I’m a mess lately is kind of an understatement.

Discourse on minority issues or anything that even indirectly involves them (like recent HP game release) is no longer something I’m interested in engaging with. A lot of people either on Fediverse as well as in my friend circles have very strong opinions, which in itself is fine, however the discourse itself became too aggressive and tribalistic to me. It’s too easy nowadays to be labelled as someone opposing progress of minority rights just because of disagreement with methods how we get there. Aggression replaced dialogue. I’m not one to say that we should progress rights by simply discussing stuff, no, that clearly doesn’t work. But alienating people who do not feel comfortable going extra mile does not progress anything. So that’s the last thing I say about those kind of issues in active conversations (I’ll still have my opinions page on my website though).

I’m making some big steps in life. A lot of new things. There is still a lot of uncertainty and worry, but I’m starting to believe in myself and that I can do it. To others it might not seem like much, but for me I’m achieving major milestones and that’s awesome.

Browsing my favorites videos list on YouTube I decided to share some wisdom onto others. Be strange, be kinky, be yourself. LOVE YOURSELF.

It’s a bit ironic that official Discord servers for games that have inherently political themes in them have a ban on political topics. On one paw I fully understand the reason for such a ban, but the irony of that rule never leaves my head.

Last week has been miserable, very miserable for me. I’ve been under enormous amount of stress, pretty much each day is another day I spend with heavy heart and uncertainty for the future. It hasn’t been completely life sucking only thanks to support of my amazing friends who helped me cheer up and who believe in me overcoming challanges ahead of me. I’m really grateful I have people like this in my life.

I need to listen to my own advice more often, even though I have my own beliefs and honestly believe they are the best me possible, I still go against them from time to time. I need more ways to make myself stop for a moment and take things in, instead of getting needlessly annoyed.

Each time I hear how old people complain how others choose to dress outside of what they consider a “normal dress code” for given gender, I want to crank up demon level and start wearing pentagrams to fend off those garbage conversations

That idea from 2 days ago? It’s now live as a Demon Shrine! Adorable <3

Oh my god, just got a great idea, I should make a cute demon gallery on my website where I simp over cute demons from various media!

If I wanted to take my life in my own paws I wouldn’t be a sub.

I sometimes stumble across a review, a video or anything of the sort praising some kind of smut LGBT indie furry game for transcendent story or something of the sort. Those are usually Visual Novels. I’ll admit, I don’t really enjoy playing or watching VNs, and I don’t really feel like I’ll play many of those pieces of art soon, but it does make me wonder… How many of those indie little games, are actually gems that many won’t ever experience because they have some prejudice against furry content, or because those games are small and barely talked about in corner of itch.io somewhere.

Sees an anthro character in realistic-ish artwork
“Good god, I want body like that”

Someone, some day is going to find that micro blog and use it to blackmail me in the future saying I’m endorsing slavery.

Slavery UwU

Recently an author of End Poem from Minecraft spoke out about… Many things, including setting End Poem into CC0 Public Domain, “gift culture”, friends, life, universe… There is a lot there. I consider End Poem to be incredibly important piece – one that spoke to me each time I jumped into end portal and seen the words moving on the screen. Every world where I achieved the end of journey in Minecraft by defeating the Ender Dragon, I knew it was coming. I jumped into a portal and read. Read and pondered – about meaning, about life, about myself and what I want to do. This poem is just important to me, just as much as Undertale is. Author mentioned a lot of things in his blog post, a lot of things I admire and feel… On the same page with. Copyrights, friendships, meaning of art. I have deep respect for Julian, and wish him all the best. And of course, I love you too universe. Thank you.

One thought that makes me feel very strange occurs every time I see a video of a climate change protester being discussed on social media. There are often feelings expressed such as cringe, second hand embarrassment or actual anger towards those people. Protesters often do something that inconveniences the public or government – because this is the nature of a protest, meant to apply pressure to talk about something. Now, how will we see those protests in 50 or even 20 years, when climate change effects will be dramatic and visible to every single inhabitant of this planet? Will we still say that it was stupid? That they shouldn’t be doing that? Or will we see those people as heroes who we didn’t listen to because our own selfish priorities at that time were more important than those protests? I think this thought it so unsettling, because I know it’s the latter. I sympathize with those protesters, I think in this situation they are the only ones that are not shortsighted, and I disagree that the form of their protests (in majority of cases) is dumb or wrong.

I have some thick skin, however when community I’m joining tolerates assholes, and moderation does nothing or little to reduce toxicity I feel like given place is not the best to stay in. I dislike heavy handed moderation approaches, and yet moderation should be pro-active about making sure community is friendly and open to everyone. If that’s not the case – it’s very likely it has more issues than just assholes.

What if we were to treat our opinions less like finished product of our thinking, but more as iteration? Thinking of our opinions more as something volatile rather than one and done kind of a deal could perhaps help us with being unable to change our opinions. I think I’ll have to add some changes to my opinions section.

From today on I’ll lower my activity in every place, where automated moderation system auto-moderates my message without actual good reason for doing so. This is frustrating and in many cases ruins the experience of chat. Those systems have way too many false-positives and at this point I disagree that this false-positive rate is acceptable in exchange for amount of moderation time they help save. It’s not acceptable when it drives your vital chat members away from your community.

Once every so often I write some bizzare query into search engine just to see what it spews out. Time and time again I see some religious websites which for a good while I wonder if they’re actually satire or not. Even for religious websites, the amount of fantasy elements mentioned is beyond what I’d expect. While those are fun to read, I can never grasp how someone can believe this absolute BS, oh well, perhaps I’m just posessed by a demon who makes me resistant to “truth” ;)

🔊 Currently listening to „Furrýmon: Gotta Smash ’Em All! (feat. Black Gryph0n & PiNKII)”

It’s technically my website, my blog, but even then I still decide to restrain myself with writing what I really think out of fear of being Internet cancelled in the future. There is no hate in what I want to write, but it would not be socially acceptable either, today or in near future. Seeing how RMS is still being crucified for things he said in the past, that he doesn’t agree with today, and generally hot water nature of the Internet, it’s scary to have an opinion. Everyone jumps to conclusions so fast, often based on 600x600 image posted on social media platform posted by new anonymous user account. People can literally ruin lives in hours with false claims. This is not the Internet I want to be in.

Navigating your computer while someone you are not outed to is staring at your screen can be a… Challenge. Bonus points when you are messy and have… Homework laying around with image previews turned on in file manager. At the very least not a lot of people know what furaffinity is.

Intrusive thoughts are easy to ignore but their existance in itself is fairly unsettling.

Watching a billionaire and awful human being lose his mind over overpriced social media platform he bought is utmost delightful.

Probably the only redeeming quality of Twitter is that there are furries on it.

Never let Windows people create Python environment, or they will npm your pip.

Is expectance of other people to be heroes, courageous warriors for freedom and peace even if they potentially have a lot to lose, a morally supported position? I don’t think so. I don’t think ANYONE should ever be expected to make sacrifices just to stand for something that will not have a real world effect anyways. There are a lot of people calling others cowards for this reason, while sitting comfortably in their very safe place of living where their family is safe and sound.

My hype for Minecraft related live content is gone. I don’t enjoy watching soulless corporate content. It just looks so canned and uninteresting.

I heavily dislike overzealous behaviors, where in pursuit of enforcing some draconian policy someone is going out of their way just to make someone’s day worse. You are not doing something right, you are just an asshole. Rules, policies are fine, enforcement as well, as long as it doesn’t go against common sense.

There is so much I want to tell, no, scream. And yet I can’t. I feel overwhelmed by everything, can’t focus. My brain is a puddle of pink goo at this point.

Every time in LGBT stories, where the LGBT part is revealed at the end, I ask myself “HOW DID I NOT SEEN THE ENTIRE LGBT THEMES BEFORE EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE SO OBVIOUS”. Today was no different after seeing an end to Bad End Theater – I cried. Wonderful game and storytelling.

In light of recent chat message reporting functionality being added to Minecraft, I want to say that I don’t feel too happy about such functionality. Not because I’m an abuser who harasses anyone, but because I don’t believe in fair implementation, that will not negatively affect responsible adults who just want to play the game on their own private server. And I do not believe Microsoft will ever be so interested in implementing proper and fair appeal process for those wrongly blocked, even though the false-positive rate of blocks is bound to be non-zero percentage.

Changing status on Discord can sometimes bring unexpected reactions, just got hit with “God loves you” by a random person, presumably because I have a very gay and demonic status.

You know you are a developer when dates start looking like version numbers

On technology used by China for racial segregation, absolutely terrifying.

Sci-Hub is awesome ❤

Looking at this year r/place makes me smile. It’s a great showcase of creativity, collaboration and spontaneous destruction. But the solidarity of different communities and interactions they made shines through the bad. r/place always will be the example that there is a place on the Internet for everyone (unless we run out of canvas).

Making food by yourself is pretty satisfying, while I don’t stride from making rather simple-medium difficulty dishes, it still feels pretty awesome to do what I want to do.

Recently I’ve been harassed over Matrix by a group of people from certain homeserver. What I find really amusing about that, was that some of them thought that sending me gore would have any effect on me. Bitch, I’ve seen shit on the Internet, I’ve moderated places for years, your feeble attempts only make me stronger.

I’ve been playing multiple games recently, and I have to say, I’m in love with cute demons. Most recent find is game „Fostering Apocalypse” which includes this adorable girl. I suppose demons in my mind represent a lot of goat like features combined with mischievous behavior, making them „cute” spins this idea into a perfect combo. Other recent find was in game „A NIGHTMARE’S TRIP” with adorable Bartholomew.

Russian dictator Vladimir Putin will fall. All dictatorships fall eventually, this time it’s time for him, threats go only so far. He tries to maintain the image of strong handed ruler, but his empire is falling apart.

This is not how a proud nation boasting about its moral superiority is supposed to look like. This is how authoritarian regime looks like. Everyone in chain of command responsible for atrocities like this are scum.

Proud of those in Russia protesting the war, you are incredibly brave people. The only way to stop the conflict with least amount of bloodshed would be internal refusal to cooperate with authoritarian state orders.

Just spent like 40 minutes trying to fix a problem, later reading on xth result of search results that the solution is to „restart Jupyter kernel”. I feel defeated, enough of work for today.

UK Government is once again considering imposing some sort of ID requirement to access pornography websites and now social media as well. This is idiotic. Anyone who ever moderated a larger Internet community knows that this does not protect children one bit (which is the argument for such regulation) and it’s giving more control to these companies that can afford identifying users. Everything about such regulations is harmful, nonsensical and needs to be stopped.

Checking out the FOSDEM conference, I want to spend some time in Matrix room, currently watching misc track

Today I moved/linked my Minecraft account with Microsoft. It took 20 minutes, and was pretty stressful. I don’t need XBox account, I don’t need Microsoft account, it’s sad I’m getting both shoved down my throat. I just want to play Minecraft as I’ve always played it.

Work on microblog part of my website has been finished! At least sort of – I still want to create a script to sync content with Mastodon and create entries right from the terminal.

I’ve finished reading „She likes homos, not me” manga and I were super emotional.

Hello world!